I’m sitting in my room crying again. I feel like I’m lost in myself again. Damn, It’s been so long.. This time it’s not from a boy or friend or anything. I’m gonna have to grow up more soon and live by myself in another state. Because I got in trouble today and my mom took my guidance counselor’s side and it pissed me off. Then I read the text my sister sent my mom about why she and dad inspired Jaque. I forgot what it was like when mom had cancer. I forgot how much my dad and the rest of us cried. God, I had to grow up so soon. And now I’m at the point where mommy and daddy won’t be at college with me to take care of me. Everything. Hitting. At. Once.
When a guy talks talks to me, I always think that they’ll just talk to anything with a vagina cause I can’t imagine anyone liking me that way.
I can’t explain how much I’m in love with this kid. We’ve been thru so much. He was my best friend and my first love, to being nothing, to becoming my friend again. God, I would do anything for him.
How do people do this whole broken hearted thing?
I don’t know how to be without you 😔
I’m just really not happy.
I have no one to talk to and no where to turn.